What A Blessing Blessings Are

A few weeks ago, during a very critical time in my schooling, trying to decide which nursing school to go to and taking tests to get into them, I asked Jesse to give me a blessing. I was stressed, overwhelmed, scared, and confused. This blessing made those feelings go away...I want my feelings from the blessing written in this journal. 

I asked him to give me a blessing; a blessing of comfort, strength, and a clear mind. Jesse gave me one of the best blessings I have ever received. I felt so at peace. My eyes were closed, my husband above me, and nothing else mattered. I felt like nothing was around us, just us. And his words… his sweet, sweet words. This was I think the first time I felt like God was the one talking to me, not the one giving the blessing. I know, without a doubt, that the words Jesse spoke were the words of Heavenly Father. Jesse told me that our Heavenly Father knows me, is aware of my needs and struggles in my life right now, knows how important this time of school is, and that he is proud of all the things I have done in my life thus far. Those words warmed my soul. I felt so loved, and known, by my Father in Heaven. He is real. He knows us by name, knows what we need, and loves us dearly. I felt that very strongly that night. It was incredible.

One of the greatest parts of the blessing is when Jesse said, "Just like you always say, Heavenly Father has angels waiting in heaven to come down to you. They will come when the time is appropriate." (or something along those lines). I cried tears of joy, of faith, of love, and of excitement. The Lord knows I am beyond excited to be a mother, he knows that is one of my goals and something that will bring me joy. I hope my little babies in heaven know I'm working hard. I'm working hard to finish what I feel I need to before I can be their mother. I hope they know how INCREDIBLE of a father Jesse will be. A worthy priesthood holder, a hard worker, and a kind man. I love him dearly. I think we will make a good parenting team.

Words cannot express how needed that blessing was… I am so grateful I felt the need to ask Jesse to give me one. I am grateful to have a worthy husband who can speak words of the Lord through the spirit. I'm grateful for a loving Father in Heaven who is always willing to guide and direct us. This gospel is extraordinary. I need to remember that more often.


I'm realizing now, especially after this blessing and some incredible conference talks, that my timing,my plan, what I want to happen with school, might not be the Lord's plan. I'm learning to do what I can, show the Lord what I am willing to do, and just trust in Him. It's hard at times, not knowing exactly what the near future holds for me, but I know it will be what is best for Jesse and I.