Some days I look at other people's blogs and see how much they just write… write about their thoughts and feelings. I wish I did that but then I think, I honestly don't have much to say. Haha. The things I think are things no one would care to hear about… things like…
I wish I was a background dancer/singer on Glee. It's a secret dream I have. I practice singing in my car…haha. Or I wish I could be on So You Think You Can Dance or American Idol. Dang want-to-be-famous dreams never coming true.
Not a day goes by that I don't say "I want a baby!" I think about having kids every day. I wonder what my sweet babies are going to look like. Will I be a good mom? I daydream about watching Jesse look at his newborn baby. Sometimes at night I pray that I will dream about our children. Jesse had a dream about our baby boy once and I was so jealous! I made him tell me every detail of the dream. My sister Tregani is the same way and has said that she is borderline obsessive…I'm the same. Why do I have to be so young and have so much schooling ahead of me? Patience Lysha, patience.
Something else I think about daily is when Jesse is actually in the Airforce and will have to go on deployments. Am I strong enough to be on my own, raising our kids, missing my husband for months at a time? It scares me. But then again, Jesse reminds me that this is his calling in life and that it will make our marriage and family stronger. When I am feeling doubtful, my dear husband is always there to remind me of the wonderful things that come with the Airforce. I sure am proud of him for choosing such an amazing career.
I miss my sister and her family a lot. Although they are only a few hours away, it's hard to be away from them for so long. It's going to be crazy when we all live all over the world! My favorite days are the days I get to FaceTime my sweet nieces and nephew. They are two crazy little girls but I couldn't love them more. Yesterday I was talking to McKinley and I said something like, "What kind of an aunt am I?" because I laughed at a picture she drew… haha… and you know what her response was? "You're a beautiful, nice aunt!" I think I'll keep her.
I think the biggest thing that consumes my thoughts is remembering how very blessed I am. I think I say that in every post, but it's true! The Lord shows me he loves me in so many different ways. I am surrounded by two amazing families, great friends, a wonderful job, good schooling, and most importantly, the man of my dreams. Literally. Jesse and I have our bad days, of course, but I am constantly reminded how lucky I am to have him in my life. I kind of love him a lot.
Anywho, although some things I write are silly little thoughts, I think it's important to write them down any way. I think I will enjoy looking back on the simple, little things in my life.
I wish I was a background dancer/singer on Glee. It's a secret dream I have. I practice singing in my car…haha. Or I wish I could be on So You Think You Can Dance or American Idol. Dang want-to-be-famous dreams never coming true.
Not a day goes by that I don't say "I want a baby!" I think about having kids every day. I wonder what my sweet babies are going to look like. Will I be a good mom? I daydream about watching Jesse look at his newborn baby. Sometimes at night I pray that I will dream about our children. Jesse had a dream about our baby boy once and I was so jealous! I made him tell me every detail of the dream. My sister Tregani is the same way and has said that she is borderline obsessive…I'm the same. Why do I have to be so young and have so much schooling ahead of me? Patience Lysha, patience.
Something else I think about daily is when Jesse is actually in the Airforce and will have to go on deployments. Am I strong enough to be on my own, raising our kids, missing my husband for months at a time? It scares me. But then again, Jesse reminds me that this is his calling in life and that it will make our marriage and family stronger. When I am feeling doubtful, my dear husband is always there to remind me of the wonderful things that come with the Airforce. I sure am proud of him for choosing such an amazing career.
I miss my sister and her family a lot. Although they are only a few hours away, it's hard to be away from them for so long. It's going to be crazy when we all live all over the world! My favorite days are the days I get to FaceTime my sweet nieces and nephew. They are two crazy little girls but I couldn't love them more. Yesterday I was talking to McKinley and I said something like, "What kind of an aunt am I?" because I laughed at a picture she drew… haha… and you know what her response was? "You're a beautiful, nice aunt!" I think I'll keep her.
I think the biggest thing that consumes my thoughts is remembering how very blessed I am. I think I say that in every post, but it's true! The Lord shows me he loves me in so many different ways. I am surrounded by two amazing families, great friends, a wonderful job, good schooling, and most importantly, the man of my dreams. Literally. Jesse and I have our bad days, of course, but I am constantly reminded how lucky I am to have him in my life. I kind of love him a lot.
Anywho, although some things I write are silly little thoughts, I think it's important to write them down any way. I think I will enjoy looking back on the simple, little things in my life.
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